Feeling a bit down in general tonight. Should be cleaning and getting things accomplished (read: cleaning, doing something to make myself less obscenely obese), but I'm not. I come home and I sit in bed with my computer. That's my life. Pretty sad, huh. I guess my homage on facebook to the upcoming one year anniversary doesn't help, it just makes me all the more sad. Sure, he is missed, but it's more than that... most every song's lyrics just reminds me of how hurt I still am by the past.

Without research supporting the claim, I know you can die of a broken heart, I don't know how/why I didn't. I'm pretty sure it takes quite a few years off of you though. Maybe that's what happened to Pete too.

Everyone just seems to be so much "better at" life.

Late into work today due to an appointment. All I'm saying is if you're a doctor and you have someone with an appointment, it's a shame that they'd need to call around to find you and then have another doctor take your place. Picked up a new lower retainer today too, I really don't want my lower teeth shifting back any further than they already have. Next year I guess I need to up the dental plan so I can straighten them back out, again.

Anywho... had dinner with ~Ninja~ and I'm completely stuffed, so much for me getting much done tonight.

Frickin beasts were up at 8am. Meh. The sun is out, but it sure isn't warm enough to go dig holes and add the rose bushes and seeds I have planned. I guess that means working inside the house today - which definitely needs done. While I got most of the bedroom done last weekend I didn't get the one dresser slid back into place or the blades on the ceiling fan. There are always the issues to be tended to in the other rooms too, like changing out the light in the dining room by the stairs and going through and boxing things that need packed or tossed.

I'm also wrapping up my parties from last weekend, both of which kicked some butt - so major yay! Some potentially exciting and big stuff happening next week, but as open and honest as I am on here, this is one tidbit I'm keeping off of this blog for now. If you know me well and want to know, ask, we'll discuss.

We had some crazy hail this evening around 5:30. I didn't go out to look, but several facebook friends reported damage to their vehicles. *sigh* It's been one of those weeks where things just want to break for me, so I guess it wouldn't surprise me.

I've got a new machine at work and what I was hoping to get fixed as a result just got transferred right in with my profile. Yay. The one time I actually wanted some light in my cube (playing with the new computer) and the lights all just flicker and flash. Go figure, right? The badge doesn't work on the back door (again). Can I blame the super moon? Maybe it's all of my tiger blood? :D

This is when I start whining about not wanting to go back to work tomorrow. After getting up bright and early on Saturday to await the arrival of assistance to rehang the bedroom ceiling fan (they also cut the downrod for me). While I waited I dug in and started my bedroom spring cleaning. All of the furniture was moved out to vacuum and thus rearranged too, dusted, and reorganized. I even washed Vixen's bedding, not that she's sleeping on it right now - the bum has taken over several of my pillows on the bed instead.

Anyhow, after the attack of the bedroom I headed to Altoona for an overnight at mom's where the bread on the sammie was two Miche shows. We're not closing either out til later this week, but I'm pretty confident I'll have hit my goal for the month, which can earn me free samples for May, love that!

The part I didn't love was Vix being overly grumpy, which she tends to become when away from home for more than a few hours. This morning she snapped at Saffy, which resulted in Danika running in. We had a bit of a scrap and everyone grumpy at the end of that one. I think it's time to say that Vixen is just going to have to stay home and have Liz, her pet sitter, come visit if I have to go overnight.

Sure, it's only 8pm, but I'm bushed. The weather could have been warmer, but at least we had sun this weekend. If I hadn't been busy all weekend, my urges to sweep the cinder from the street and rake the front yard would have been indulged. Soon... soon.

Yeah, so you officially beat me in the great timeline of life, but at least I didn't have to resort to chicanery and lies to get to that point.

Another nice day out - yay! Ok, it was a little chilly, but the sun was out, which just made me feel good - despite my sinuses having a fit (of excitement about the impending spring). I still feel robbed having lost an hour of my weekend, but at least there was light in the sky as it neared 7pm. As a result, I pulled out Drake and welcomed him from hibernation. This of course means it will snow in the next 48 hours. Sorry, my fault.

Majorly pissy week. I'm hormonally moody and that's probably the root of all evil, but there has been way too many things that felt like personal insults or assaults. Everything from seeing several items I put time and effort into getting cast off without a second thought to what seems like a lie of omission. The terse reply that felt like a personal slight I know was not meant like that, but it felt that way and made me grumbly too. Then there's disappointment. Sometimes when you don't get the reaction you expect it drops you extra hard.

I don't think I mentioned previously that I did do some organizing in the kitchen, pulling EVERYTHING out of several cabinets, tossing the old and realigning the remains. Tonight I've started a pot of chicken noodle soup with a nice thai curry broth that has allowed me to toss three containers of mixed pasta that didn't have enough to support one full serving. I'll take the achievement, I don't care how trivial.

I neglected to mention that yesterday I saw the first robin(s) of the year - two of them greeted me as I came home from work. Finally, an end in sight!

Bedroom fan is still on the floor. Why? Because no one sells any shorter downrods, and I can't see how it can be attached without one. Grr. Instead, tonight after my sign language class I dug in on some tidying, purging, and cleaning that needed done.

I really need to find some time to practice sign language. More than that, I need to purge things from my life that consume time and offer me little in return.

Fighting with stupid things around the house makes me want to scream. After several days fighting with things and making way too many runs to get parts I need I've got the hall light replaced (but the finial won't go on right, leaving it too loose - needed to stop before I threw the glass dome to the floor), the light switch is on and screwed in (but I can't test it because I can't find a shorter downrod for the fan to put it back up with). ...and then I burned my finger on the frickin work light. Seriously, do they have to become molten lava after being on for 5 minutes?

I'm going on vacation to Phuket (yes, this is a real place, in Thailand. I'm sure it's not pronounced the way I imply it, but it makes me giggle, so deal with it). I like being in the dark anyhow.

Some days I just hate Facebook. It reinforces how easily some people make connections compared to me. Be it someone finding a relationship (gotta love it when they JUST got out of another or just expressed what could have been interpreted as interest in me) or finding customers (one post by so many gals gets immediate order requests or potentially booked shows). I've never thought I was great at anything, but I'd always at least thought I was mediocre at everything I tried - but some days I wonder.

At least my visit to the dentist today was a success. He was worried about a couple of teeth, but the x-rays show all is clear *yay*. I can also say that work had a smile on my face all day - how often does that happen? I've said for quite some time that it doesn't always have to be huge "rewards" and today is proof. We got to wear jeans today (without making a donation), they handed us a personalized candy bar when we walked through the front door, and my boss even treated us all extra special today. The days of "free lunch friday" being every Friday are nearly 9 years behind me, but I really enjoyed this one.

I crossed two things off of the to do list last night, so I've got a nice new toilet seat and clean filters in the whole house filter. Interestingly, the new filters appear to have resolved another issue that I couldn't put my finger on. You see, after the work was finished in the bathroom it started, when I first turn on the tub I'd get some orange, rusty-water for a second.

From there I have been working on getting some grading out of the way. Today was a series of meetings and running about. My feet are achy thanks to the heels as a result. The last "meeting" was to come home to meet the HVAC guy, so I've got the new blower installed. After that I ran for my allergy shot on my way to my hair appointment and then for grub w/ Beff and Dougiefresh. It was good to sit on the couch tonight, even if it was working on grading some things!