Monday, May 02, 2016

Today has been rough.  I woke up to a panic attack around 6am.  My mind just roared me awake thinking "what are you doing - you're giving up a place with a fence for your dogs".  I can't bail on things... I just can't allow the fear of the unknown to take away what I've been working towards.

This evening I mowed front and back since it was relatively dry.  Things should look decent for photos on Wednesday.  I also scrubbed the kitchen, bath, and dining room floors, and the shower.  I've cleaned up more odds and ends that hadn't been hidden away.  Tomorrow I dust, vacuum, and do those types of things.  How do I quiet the doubts?

Sunday, May 01, 2016

I went to my favorite Egg's this weekend.  I admit, I just wanted to be at home.  Mentally, I just need to sleep for a week - I'm spent.  I looked at three places w/ a realtor out there on Friday night, hit one open house by myself on Saturday, and hit a couple more open houses today before returning home.  Truly, the newer houses all look exactly the same - right down to the complete and utter lack of yard ending in either a cliff or a hill that makes you frightened you might be responsible for mowing it.  The older homes tend to be not just older, but not kept up and/or landing in neighborhoods that make me turn up my nose.

At this point, I feel like my desires are overbearing.  I feel that concessions are being made - ones that will take me down a path I'm all to familiar with.  I know I need to get out of the area, but the rest of the scenario makes me wonder where I am supposed to go and what I'm supposed to do.  Yes, having someone is what finally inspired me to leap, and I'm too weak to take steps on my own.  Some things just aren't part of some people's destinies.

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

I showered and washed my hair.  Since the drain is not running smoothly this left a good bit of water when I was done.  I decided to try and fish some of my hair out - which is one of the grossest things on the planet in my view, but I am tired of waiting for the contractor to come so they can get to that.  I got a bunch out, but now the tub isn't draining at all.  I'm so done.
I should be in a good mood... I've had some good news today, but I'm also frustrated.  Let's get those tidbits out of the way first.

Contractors - yes, I do want the work done, but I need to have a quote from you so I'm not surprised or trapped.  I mean, is that really too much to ask for?  Also, needing to ask you back and forth to clarify the oddities on a quote are tedious.  The carpets are dry... but I can also see there was some furniture not moved and cleaned under.  Yeah, that doesn't please me either.

There is also the continued feeling of hemorrhaging money.  I know it costs more to have other people do things for you... but sometimes it is ridiculous and you feel like you're being taken for a ride because they know you're on a timeline.  It wouldn't even be such a huge timeline if it didn't take a week or more to get the quote.  Oh - and then I had a telemarketer call that was unfortunate enough in that I answered the phone thinking it could have been someone I needed to talk to.

Now the good stuff... a question was raised the other day regarding the zoning of my house.  Believe me this was a very bad and stressful thing for the past couple of days.  Fact is, the apartment was an apartment (rented out even) when the house was purchased so many years ago.  To even think that it could have been zoned and marked as a single family residence?  Ugh.  I don't even want to think about what that could have meant if I hadn't gotten the good news that the updated maps show it properly.

The other good stuff is that I have gotten my answer at work, and it is the one I wanted.  This should leave me overjoyed and it should override all of the other annoyances today - but I can't even fully bask in it.  And bask in it I should!  I feel like this was an answered prayer - one that I finally put down and allowed God to pick it up by setting the date to put the house on the market.  I'm doubting so much about direction and it all boils down to having a safe place to lean.  I'm ready to not do this all on my own any more - but I still feel alone.  That speaks too loudly for me.

Monday, April 25, 2016

Yesterday we gathered to celebrate Beff at the Boulevard.  Her sister, SIL, Mom, nieces, and I planned her bridal "shower".  While the event wasn't a surprise, I think she was truly surprised by some of the details that were picked just for her.  I know she had a good time with everyone, and I'm happy to have given her a day all about her before the all about "them" day.  Having mutual friends, I too got to see quite a few folks that I was glad to spend time with.  Our weather was beautiful, the food was good, and the cake (which Mum made) was amazing... as are the leftovers which I'm gladly helping to work on.

I feel like I didn't do anything after the event, but I did... I'm afraid I am getting used to being overworked.  it might be a good thing if I can maintain a higher level of cleanliness and tidiness in the long run, but it does make me feel like a slacker to have a short list of things I accomplished in a day off.  I mowed the front lawn last night, watered all of my plants (which there are now more of to attend to), and moved some smaller items out of the bedroom and living room so I would be ready for the carpet cleaners.  I was exhausted by 6pm last night and in bed by 10, but my sleep was not quick coming, disrupted by dreams including one about snowy roads and a wreck w/ a snow plow, and re-awakening at 5am to use the bathroom and to feebly lay there trying to fall back asleep.

The carpet cleaners were there this morning, so that is done.  I am hoping that everything is brighter and freshly scented... oh, and dry, by the time I get home.  Also, I got my numbers from my real estate agent.  If the front landscaping could get done quickly we can get the pictures taken and I can move forward.  It has to happen regardless of answers here.  I know that.  It scares me.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Friday night I came home and got busy for a few hours before convincing Beff to join me for a drink to decompress.  The upstairs is DONE!  I also did a quick pass on some routine cleaning that needed done (bathroom sink/tub, wipe down kitchen counters, dusting)

I feel like I put in a 12 hour day today.  I was up just after 7 so I could load the car to take yet another load to my Favorite Egg's.  I needed to get moving so I could get to the car shop and get vehicles inspected.  On the way back up the hill I stopped at the nursery and picked up my third plant for the front pots and a tomato plant.  Inspection and oil done on the Kia, no issues, then run home to swap out vehicles.  The Tib was cranky and needed jumped.  I guess I haven't done enough long running (or frequency) since pulling it out of the garage.  Inspection and new tires (I knew it needed it), but fortunately nothing else.  With the long list of bills rolling in in the next few weeks the tires were plenty.

I got out of there close to noon, and needed to drive around a bit to charge up that battery a bit.  After about 20 minutes I headed into the mall with a desire to find a new wreath for the front door.  I know the mall isn't the first place you think of to buy something like this, but they had about the same amount of selection as the local crafty places anyhow.  Either way, I didn't find anything I liked.

Back to the house and time to bust some butt.  First I went out back, scooped poop, raked up three more dog food bags of nut shells, and then did the first mow on the back lawn.  Then I pulled out the leaf blower to clear the leaves from the patio area, just in case the handyman is ready to come in early this week - he'll be working in that area.  Time to scoot inside.  After many hours, the wet/dry vac has made its way around the garage and basement sucking up dust, dirt, and cobwebs.  Some of the shelves in the garage are wiped down as are the table and shelves by my washing machine and freezer.  Finally, I put those new plants in their pots.  It's "early" but I'm done for the day.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Epic fail would be the title of this post. My day leaves me regretting decisions made 13 years ago - and paying for them. Because (I'll say we, because that is how it was at that point) we didn't cough up to pay for a pressure test to detect what would be this epic fail of ground water infiltration, putting it squarely back on the previous owners to do additional work, I am now looking at what is likely to be a pretty big bill.

You see, what the previous owners had done only handled the line from the main stack (my side) of the house, not the apartment. The contractor found the view port and hooked everything up, but as soon as he started to pressurize water gurgled up from the drain in the garage - the drain I previously thought went to the sump pump also there in the garage. Wrong.

Did I mention that the apartment's stack is at the back left corner of the garage and it runs under the concrete the whole way up to the driveway? The contractor has some alternatives to running the new line to avoid digging up my entire garage, but I can still see dollar signs. I got to pay $140 for the pleasure of learning everything is f'd too. Of course, once the work to handle the other stack is done there is no guarantee that there isn't going to be a problem with the lines put in from the main stack. For that matter, it's quite likely there will be something wrong there as it's been so long. Hopefully that something isn't also under the garage floor.

Nevermind that most of Richland hasn't even been forced to deal w/ this bullsh*t yet. Just me. Always... just... me. Other people I know that will be listing a place in Richland soon are likely to just waltz out of it under the 15 years since pressure test pass caveat and not even need to take the $140 step I took today. Some days it seems so unfair. I hate people who sit and play the victim all the time too, so please pardon me for these moments of sadness on this one. I've worked hard to save money and while I can pay for it and I know I'm blessed in that fact beyond measure compared to others, I sure don't want to see that money - quite literally - going down the drain.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

I really wanted to get the upstairs done tonight, but it didn't happen.  I did make good progress though.  I went up with the intention of finishing the office room, but in trying to box some things I went hunting for other things to combine into the box, so I cleaned out the little alcove/storage area and pulled some things from the spare bedroom.  I'll say the office is at 95% now, the spare bedroom at 90%, and the storage space at 100%.  Every wall that needs washed has been done!  Well, at least above ground level.  I could probably stand to do some more scrubbing in the basement.  Either way, good progress.

This is good because the carpets are scheduled for scrubbing early next week and the less stuff to move about the better.  Tomorrow I should be meeting the guy who is pressure testing the sewer work here at the house.  Please say a prayer for minimal alteration needs.  I should also be getting some numbers from my real estate agent, so prayers there too that I've made some leaps upward, please.  Heck... while we're at it, let's go for the trifecta - still nothing on the work inquiry.

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Update:  I made pretty good progress in the office tonight (walls washed and vacuumed).  Another hour or so and I should have it fully in order.
I had to step out for a chunk of the afternoon to get to my ENT appointment today, but I left even earlier so I could have lunch with my Favorite Egg.  I have to admit, there was a conversation before he left that leaves me questioning my long term plans.  Maybe I'm being moody.  I just want to know that there is something more for us to move towards.  Unfortunately, I'm feeling old, so I feel this pressure to get somewhere faster than the rest of the world wants things to move.

I tried to work through my self tormenting brain out in the back yard.  There are about 8 dog food bags full of twigs, leaves, and walnut shells at the curb tonight.  The handyman did stop in too, so I'll be waiting for his estimates for fixes.  *fingers crossed*  I guess I should go upstairs and try to gather some more of the small items that need dealt with, so the carpet cleaning can happen.
I hit the grocery store last night to grab burger making supplies, then I swapped tanks for the grill, and I'm so glad I did. I made a batch of brownies and started potatoes in the oven with some onions while I waited for my Favorite Egg to arrive. He had an appointment in town this morning, so I got the rare weeknight with him.

I still had enough time to wash all of my windows and weed eat out front before he arrived. I may have mentioned that I pulled the weed eater out on Friday but quickly remembered it was out of line. Well I figured out how to refill it so I could finish up that work.

One dinner at my recently cleaned off deck table complete. Yay for being able to do that in the middle of April.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

I had a short weekend away - and not where you'd guess.  Lori and I headed to Chateau de Johnson, near Baltimore, where we crashed for the Alton Brown Eat Your Science tour show!  We got to town and demanded snacks.  Rex took us to Wegman's and I was overwhelmed.  We had some sushi for a snack and snagged some desserts for later.  I grabbed a chocolate cheesecake.

Before I knew it we were headed out to meet JSpice and his lovely wife for dinner at the Brewer's Art.  OMG the brussels sprouts appetizer.  I had chicken for dinner, which was also quite tasty, but I didn't enjoy it as much as I could have - had we not been rushed to eat.  They were a bit slow in the turn around after our orders were placed... so we ended up a few minutes late for Alton.  *sigh* but I don't think we missed too terribly much.

The show was good, but somehow, not quite what I expected.  Don't take that wrong... it was amazing to see Alton, but I'll say the show started off better than it ended.  We were so psyched for lasers (as per some FB posts) but ended up with what felt like a rehashed Good Eats popcorn episode.  Now, I need to find the GMO song... my Favorite Egg would approve.  Back to the house where I dove into that chocolate cheesecake.

Morning came, and after some caffeine intake it was time to make a supply run before heading north again.  I picked up some coffee at Baltimore Coffee and some Du Claw (Sweet Baby Jesus and Dirty Little Freak) beer.  Then it was time for lunch at Petit Louis Bistro before we hustled back and loaded up for the long ride home.  Our weather was beautiful and I feel like I had a long weekend away.  Good times.

Friday, April 15, 2016

Is my back feeling better you ask?  You didn't ask?  Jerk. Actually, I feel a great deal better today.  There is still some tension there, but I didn't have pain that made me wince today and I can move my arms and neck much more freely.  I'm well on my way.  I did still have a few minutes of pain trying to get through the night however, so I'm ready for bed early tonight (hopefully).

The warm sunny weather pulled me out back after work to brush the dogs.  That's where I heard the guy behind me and to the side running his mower, which made me think I should go ahead and do that out front and along the side to mulch up leaves again.  I didn't get to weed eat because my rechargable weed eater is out of cord, which I forgot, and I had already put the extension cord away, so I didn't want to pull out the corded one.

I pulled out the pots and put the dirt in them that I had, so they're ready for me to get some pretty posies to decorate the porch.  Then I went to the back porch where I uncovered the table (which didn't get uncovered even once last year - it was pretty gross) and the chairs.  I also washed down the lounger and metal garden seat.  I had patio furniture cleaner in hand, which said it was a skin irritant, but I ended up getting the bulk of the gross removed using Dawn dish soap in warm water - and it promises softer skin.  Take that!

I also cranked out a load of laundry and even made myself dinner.  Boom.  It was a good Friday night.