I am a mental case.  I can blame the guys who have treated me like shit in part, but ultimately it is my inability to give anything emotional.  I am a heartless bitch.  I don't want to need someone because they'll just screw me over.  I won't admit needing help unless I'm desperate.  So how does someone who is emotionally retarded get to complain and whine about wanting to find a nice guy, especially when they know damn well that if they met someone nice they'd be an ass?  I should just learn to accept a lonely world, it's the only thing comfortable.